Self Doubt - I'm glad you said it is an energy vs. a thing that I am. I realize it haunts me and is pervasive at all times. The biggest things right now are work - because of open enrollment, and my health.
Work is frustrating because my boss wants everyone to comply with open enrollment, but at the same time, wants me to be "unobtrusive."
I got my blood test results - my diabetes hasn't changed. It didn't get better, but didn't get worse, either. I've been really good about fasting, but bad on my eating days. It's not even bc I'm hungry. But after fasting, I feel like it's my right to eat anything and everything. Now I know I need to control that better AND continue to fast. My sister is constantly baking pastries and cookies. When I told her about my blood test, she was pretty critical of me bingeing on carbs.
I realize I have been very sedentary, despite a lot of yoga. Ever since Mia died - I stopped walking around the lagoon here at lunch time. It's been start and stop lately - because of the workload.
The self doubt grows bc I feel overwhelmed.
I wish I can be in a more positive mood right now. I also started my period the other day.
About calling upon Rhiannon - I'm not familiar with horses....and I'm trying to relate to her story about her stolen son. I'm not sure how....
Journal for Sandra